As you can see by the title...

Well, one, I have a new blog design as you can see. It's not fully done yet and with all the hours I'm working for work, it's going to be a little bit till I can fully get it done. Also, same with the YouTube, I'm not giving up on it! I just have a ton going on ya know.

I put a deposit down on a apartment with a friend! And oh my gosh, it's my favorite thing ever. 

Isn't it pretty? I'm in love. Hardcore. I can't wait to move in, and I can't wait to blog the process and tips and tricks I learn while doing it. Oh, did I mention I move in on my birthday, which is March 11th? I'm so ready. So pumped. 

Pain Washes Away

It is 2 in the morning and not even 30 minutes ago I was sitting where I am now, being upset because of another persons actions. I don't understand why I do this to myself, I won't ever understand why I get upset because of other peoples choices. Then a random thought came to my head..
When was the last time I actually took a decent shower? 

No, this isn't post about how I need to do better hygiene. But I realized, I only take bathes or short showers. I haven't actually just spent time in the shower and just washed things away. I put away the computer, I turned off that depressing music, and made myself get up when instead I know I rather just sit there and question everything. I looked at myself in the mirror, and asked myself..

"Has it always been like this? Why have I always done this to myself?"

I noticed, I looked tired, which doesn't make much sense because I sleep a lot. I looked sick & pale, which I am pale and I have a little cold, but it looked nasty, like I didn't want to look at myself. I haven't realized it, and apparently putting a smile on in front of other people worked well because nobody ever said a word to me about it. I wanted that to change, right there. 

You can make that change anytime in your life. You don't need some life or death moment as I thought for many years to make you realize how great or blessed your life really is. You just need as little has 30 minutes and a shower to realize that it's not as bad as you have it out to be. I have people daily that tell me that they love me, and I kick them to the curb because honestly, I've been a twat (if my parents read this, sorry, but it's true and you know it is.) I've had a bad look on everything possible, and I'm sick of it. I want change, I want happiness, and most of all I want people to stop telling me what I can't and can not do to get to that happiness. 

While taking that shower I decided to wash all the bad stuff away. Nothing that is affecting my life in a good way. People, Places, Things, and Thoughts. If you don't hear from me much anymore, this is your sign. You wasn't there to help me along my journey anymore, and that is your choice and there is nothing wrong with that. I'm just moving on, to better myself and the people around me that is wanting to stay along for the ride. 

Life has a funny way of showing you that you're better than this. Better than laying in bed in a messy room, and waking up with a awful headache. I know I'm much more than this. I didn't write this post to get pitty, or for the 'shares.' But in a way I did, because I want other people to see this, to realize that we're in this together, and we can do it with no problem. Like I've always said to people that came to me with sadness, Happiness is a choice that only you can make.

I'm making that choice. 

5 Ways On How To Beat The Blues

I'm blue de da da de da da de da da...

That's more than likely not how that goes, but I like to make up in my head how lyrics really should go. Today as I'm laying in bed, when I should be working (car issues), I'm really trying to fight those blues. 

See, what sucks about being really creative, it's really hard to find a job you love. I have this issue with any job I'm at, even though they are amazing jobs, I can't fall in love with them. I've been lucky and worked places that don't suck. Even my first "real" job was awesome. But I'm the kinda person that rather be filming, painting, photographing, or writing instead of doing what a lot of people in my life considers a "real" job. It's depressing, and sucks because all the things I love to do I know I can turn into a job that I love, that actually has a meaning to me, but I don't have the support from some people that I strive to get their support. 

Now to get on with the main point of this post, I have some ideas on how to beat the blues that you are going through. Whatever it is, these shall work for you (or at least I hope.)

1. Do some yoga, or if thats not your thing, sit on your floor and stuff your face with pizza.
2. Get some crystals that help you get rid of some of those bad vibes. 
3. Take a bath, this one is my favorite. 
4. Watch some cute videos, or what whatever YouTube video floats your goat as I say. 
5. Sleep it off, then wake up and get to work on things you love.

I hope these 5 little things help you. 

Quote Monday

Hey guys! I hope your Monday is going well! If it isn't I'm hear to make it better with some awesome quotes. Im planning on every Monday looking up some quotes on the good ol' Pinterest. It helps me out because it's going to give me some quotes to jump start my day and make me feel better, and also hopefully help you guys do the same!

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